Is anyone else just as furious with the blatant hypocrisy in the world today? I find I am constantly surrounded by double standards and willful ignorance, not just in the political world, but even in my own everyday life. It just suffocates my good nature soul and leaves me to wonder if there is no redemption for humanity.
The closer the moment of transition of executive power approached, the more dread entered my heart. Fear surrounds me. Hopelessness blocks out the light. A Trump presidency makes me feel depressed.
But there is one key difference between my experience with clinical depression and what I am currently feeling from this upcoming administration: the lack of energy. A person suffering from depression normally would feel lethargic and have no desire to do things they once enjoyed. That’s not the case this time. While there is an overwhelming anxiety to the current state of the United States, and in general, the world, I do still doing things, but also, I’m bubbling with energy from the anger. The hatred, hypocrisy, and total lack of compassion and regard for our fellow man make me irate.
The anti-elitism, anti-intellectualism, isolationist, populist mentality that has grown of the past few years has caused tremendous pain in my heart and soul. The growth of misinformation, deception, manipulation propagates through the information highway like an invisible virus contaminating our water supplies. Facts, no matter how inconvenient or true, have become obsolete and treated as a red herring to the “actual reality.” What is to become of a person who holds the ideals of Truth above all else?
The microcosms’ riptides have dragged society into these terrible feedback loops that isolate us from outside thought and reinforce our natural biases and prejudices. This only produces selfishness and resentment. And once our actions towards others become selfish or full of unprovoked resentment, all we provide to others is pain and suppression.
So when I see majority of social media feeds dedicated to these extremes, it adds to my desire to leave behind these avenues of interconnectivity.
Therefore, I have decided to remove myself from social media starting February 1st, 2017. This has something I’ve been considering for quite long time. This decision has not come easily. I have fretted about it even before my suicide attempt. But the time has come to part ways with what was once a promising medium for sharing and promoting ideas.
On top of the aforementioned reason, social media produces a desire to both be obsessed with our digital personas, and with consuming the digital reality of others on a public forum. We have become more concerned with flicking through our news feeds and digesting our digital friends’ portrayed lives than actually embracing our very real and tangible lives.
Too often do I see selfies of others doing things just as a means to inflate their endorphins and anticipate each like or comment as if they signify a personal statement about oneself. I understand the desire to take photos to capture moments and memories, but I no longer understand how that translates to also wanting everyone else to know about that memory. Perhaps it is just easier for people to live a digital life they can form and edit than living in the moment and accepting what reality has to offer, good and bad.
So instead of the continual impulse to read my feeds and feed my anxieties, I’m going use those precious minutes I’m gaining back to do other things, like reading a book or writing more thoughtful blog posts. I could even write a letter to a friend. Maybe I’ll even be more active in making meaningful and positive change in my community. Shit, I might actually sit down and listen to music so I can actively listen to it. Nevertheless, I’m done with social media. I’m done living a digital life that’s constantly being subconsciously scrutinized.